Medical experts are charged with unpacking mysteries held within bodies. They ask optical machines and their resulting media to truthfully answer what it is to be human, where it hurts, and to perform as virtual selves. I ask the same of media as an artist who grew up being used for medical research and started digging through medical archives to see if I would find myself. Now by examining the examiners and the media they produce, I diagnose their effects and uncover moments that feel like my own. The operation of this unpacking involves found clinical media and machines. I use the intrinsic quality of physical media materials such as 16mm film, and distressed VHS because they are unique objects that hold an aesthetic history of their (mis)use like our bodies, which hold distinct memories within their physical forms.
Projection detail "Je Ne Sais Plus [What Is This Feeling]" 16mm film performance/installation: 9, 16mm film projectors 2012